Another week

Well did I mention i got demoted at my job.. I'm not the shipping manager anymore and it;s rather sad.. I feel bad looking at ewveryone, and walking past them.. but I'm at least working.. I'm back to buildcing computers and I do like that a lot... The ppl that I work with are great and we laugh and have fun all, day but we DO know how to kick butt when needed... My best frined of 32 years,., well he's a total jerk and everyday I'm in fear of losing my job.. That's really hard but I'm makeing it.

Last Friday I went to get a CT sca of my siniuses and I'm going to a ENT specialest tomorrow.. I may have to have surgery I'll let y'all know.. all one of y'all that read this...lol

REally the hardest part is going to work everyday.. .. having no idea what this boss ex-b/f will do.. he's so mean.. I never knew him like this... This power of the job and his position has turned him into someon I never knew... 

I'll ttyl..

Wils

This week in the land of Wils

Just wanted to make an effort to say a fews words from time to time now.. I know other sites are real popular but I know some still come here.... If your still around say Hey and leets talk some.. I miss y'all... Y'all are the ones that kept mealive and I'm been so honored and grateful to have helped some here....

So let's talk......

Wils

My new life

Well it;'s been longer than I could think it would be... I turned 51 January 30th this year and I'm so in love with someone... yes i made it.. I made it with frineds and help.. I nearly didn't though.. i almost died... but as y'all said.. I made it through, I made it on the other side.. did you know it was just 2 weeks ago I deleted all Beckahs stuff off my computer,, it's taken me that long to let totally go of her.. there will always be a place in my heart for her... I can't lie about that... but I've fallen in love with another, and this women is so kind and great to me.. .... Beckah never said she loved me, never treated me as a b/f.. but now.. this women.. well we ARE b/f and g/f we are in love.. i have no idea what all will happen but it's going great and even though we are miles away.. we are SO in love....... something beckah was never with me.......thank y'all for thinking of me even when I've not bee here.. thank you for your prayers and all .... I'm not sure what else to ayI hope everyone that reads this is ok.. with myspace and facebook,, so many things have changed..

someone told me that Priss and Chlesea were not reall ppl.. someone said that another person was faking them .. I still and can't believe it.. I won't after all the phone calls and talks we had, the different voices and situations.. for 2 long years.. they weren't real.. geeeeesh.. if anyone knows anything.. please I emplore you please tell me......... Wils

I have no real idea why I'm waiting till this weekend.. it seems odd that I feel this responsibility to work, but whatever you know.. I've hung around for this past week hopig, wishing I would feel better but it's all been for not. Nothings changed, no feelings are better.. I'm so gone, in pain, and deep depression.....I tried to be better...

Suffering

I've been trying to go on. I can't, I won't live my life with this much pain..... All I hear is her voice, All I see is face in my motorcycle helmet, my mirror, everywhere I turn she is there. We were frineds, of the closest type... Talking of hours on the phone, holding eachother at night while we lay hundereds of miles away in our own beds but as close as as if it wher next to eachother. She's ereased  me from everything.. no phone, no yahoo, no myspace.. ALL IS GONE!!! and all is becoming so clear to me that I've tryed, and it's not going to be ok.....I'm so scared, I'm so lost.... This is more than I can bare...

Wils